The Mirror

YEAH! I have reentered the land of the living! I was out for almost 2 weeks, in bed for most of those days, on an IV for a few days ill with malaria and dengue. But I am on the upswing. Good news about the dengue. There are 4 types and you only get them once (so I've heard). This is my second time, so I shouldn't get these two strains ever again.  Yahoo!

Garth and I have Indonesian classes the whole month of June. I went to the first two and then got sick, so I am trying desperately to make it all up. Tomorrow I need to take all of the tests that I missed. Haha. That should be fun.

During my time in bed, I had a lot of stillness, quiet. Times when there was no noise and my soul could rest, not just my body. And it was so good. I think everyone needs a good week of bed rest. Turn everything off. Do nothing. No noise. No activity. Just the peacefulness of your own thoughts. It was super sweet.  There is so much that I miss when my life is too loud. 

C.S. Lewis said this-"We can ignore even pleasure. But pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our conscience, but shouts in our pains: it is His megaphone to rouse a deaf world."  Well, I was definitely in pain those two weeks. And I am glad for it.  One thing that I heard shouted to me during that time, is how often I want the mirror that I hold in front of me to reflect ME. I want my accomplishments and sacrifices to be noticed. And then I heard this, "Do you love God?" To which I answered, "YES, of course." "Do you really love Him?"  "YES, I do." "Then, push yourself out of the way." Boom! Just like that. It seems so simple. But I am used to taking up that whole mirror and loving it. Time for change. Ok. Well, you can pray for me while I begin to work on this.

Now, it is time to go study for Indo. Love you all.

Rachel